Gemini Full Moon Meditation

Went to a full moon meditation today... I've never been good at visualizing things and this time didn't really differ from the other times. Though I must say there were some moments where I thought I felt something and saw something... Many people experienced visions and stuff like that... some even burst into tears and cried non-stop. Let me list some stuff that I envisioned

1) Cartoon characters = the road-runner... and some other Looney Toon characters... but can't remember the other ones. Other cartoons were also involved... walking down roads and stuff
2) Enlighten by various crystals and saw different colored lights. Was sitting in a cave full of different gems, minerals, and crystals
3) Saw me in a wedding dress and about to get married?!?!?! (no, I dont want to get married just yet... not at least until I have someone who I would even consider the possibilities with)

When the whole thing is over, everyone shared their thoughts and what they experienced... I didn't feel so comfortable sharing it in front of everyone. I didn't feel like I wanted to disclose myself at all... felt ashamed and felt embarrassed almost.... I never felt comfortable about sharing personal things like that to anyone though, so I guess this time didn't differ. I don't care so much about sharing my crazy dumbass stories that make me look like a fool to everyone, but to share something deep and personal, absolutely not. Isis talked to me after the whole thing and asked me one thing. "Why do you always go search for something that ends with question marks/confusion/uncertainties?" I have absolutely no fucking clue. Then she told me that I need to stop hurting myself and let myself feel that I deserve the best and that I deserve to receive from others. Felt the tears behind my eyes start to form right then but I held it in... I hate crying in front of anyone. Of course, when I got home, all the things that I've been avoiding and not thinking about all comes rushing back. All the uncertainties and doubts... so much easier to give advice on than to actually do it yourself. One thing at a time... yeah, dont even know what that one thing is right now... time will tell hopefully